Esoteric studies, Jungian studies, deep investigation. Someone once said, “Don’t read a book unless it is like a ball of light glowing in your hands.” Find the right books (or other worthy objects of contemplation) and you will have that experience.
Since you are consulting an oracle of this sort, it is highly likely that you have an essential connection to esoteric studies. Esoteric study is not a hobby or eccentricity, but an attempt to pull back the veils and find out how deep the rabbit hole really is. It is an essential aspect of human intentionality and that’s why some version of it exists in all cultures during all periods. Some take a shamanic path and emphasize entheogens and direct experience; others take an intellectual approach that has more to do with books. Find the approach that works best for you at this time.
Jung felt it was foolishly dangerous to approach the unconscious without a moral purpose. For shamans, the moral purpose was usually healing. You may want to heal yourself or to investigate what is happening beneath the surface of our imperiled world. Whatever your moral purpose is, it is crucial that you stay true to it during the course of your studies.
There are many traditions of keeping esoteric studies secret. Your studies can be depotentiated and degraded by speaking about them to the unreceptive. As Aleister Crowley said, “If I tell a man something he is not ready to hear, it is the same as if I told him a lie.”
“As far as we can discern, the sole purpose of human existence is to kindle a light in the darkness of mere being.” — C.G. Jung, Memories, Dreams, Reflections, 1962