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A classic illustration of these principles involves romantic relationships. A mind-and-ego-dominated person tells himself, “Well, I have to be going out with someone — what about this person? What about that person?” A merchant mind kicks in, like someone anxiously scanning personal ads or evaluating merchandise: “Well, this one likes candlelit dinners, but this one is taller. But this one seems more reliable. But this one…” From my point of view, the default position for the conscious person is solitude, often the most powerful place to be, but with a willingness to come forward into relationship, ready to give it all the incredible energy and attention it is going to take when called to do so from the depths of one’s being. You wait for the soul mates and spiritual allies, and recognize that even these depth relationships are likely to have problematic phases and will take a lot of care and resources. You don’t go forward into a random relationship out of the lonely restlessness of the social ego, which is addicted to social matrix noise and anxious to fill space with some sort of body or chatter or whatever. By endlessly distracting yourself with superficial relationships, you may miss out on the soulful ones. It is the same with career choices, major relocations, and big plans. The ego loves decisive action, hates to wait in ambiguity and ambivalence and wants some sweeping change that will supposedly resolve everything. One of the greatest assets of a mature person is the ability to be at rest with ambiguity and ambivalence. A little mind can’t stay open to uncertainty and reaches for premature closure, becomes a true believer in something, a religion or secular fundamentalism.
Be tolerant of ambiguity, ambivalence, and uncertainty. These are our constant and familiar life companions that help us learn, offering us a world more complex and mysterious than a checker board. Wait until you really know, then throw the switch and don’t look back.