What part of you is pulling your own strings? Emotions? Addictions? Identifications? Obsessions? Depressions? Anxieties? Accepted social conditioning? Collective Influences? Infatuations? Ego schemes? It is very easy to lose our free will and potential individuality to all sorts of mechanical patterning. Consider this a propitious time to see the strings and to stop being your own puppeteer.
See IUI -- Incarnating Under the Influence in a Polywater World