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Suggestions for Symbiotic Interdimensional and Alternative Selves Relationships

Cover Image: Parallel Interdimensional Portals—collage by Jonathan Zap

Note: this document is being prepared on Jan. 3rd and will keep developing after, and you are seeing this  document at an early phase. I will be on Coast-to-Coast AM with George Noory Friday Jan. 3 at 11pm MST (10pm PST, midnight central, 1AM EST) coast is broadcast on about 600 stations—go to the Coast affiliate map https://www.coasttocoastam.com/stations to find a station near you and you may be able to listen live on the Coast site or various radio station websites.

I also discussed the subject on Dec. 30, 2019 on Radio Orbit with Mike Hagan https://www.mikehagan.com/2019/mp3/123019_JONATHAN_ZAP_IO.mp3

Note: I will also be addressing the shocking news from Iran and Iraq and the psychological underpinnings of global conflict.  I have been studying and writing about the unfolding of historic events largely from the perspective of Jungian psychology for more than forty years. For example, here is part one of my three-part series on the psychology of Middle Eastern conflict:

Projection—The Enemy of Peace and Justice Part One

Yesterday, a few hours before the American drone attack that killed Iranian Maj. Gen. Qassim Suleimani, I had what now looks like a premonitory event.  I was stepping out of my study after a long writing session and walking across the living room toward the kitchen and noticed my godson, Indigo, who is fifteen, sitting at the dining room table absorbed in his phone and laptop and wearing bright green headphones. Especially during the holiday break, this is what I’ve been seeing everyday when I emerge from my study.  For example, I just took this photo of Indigo sitting in the same seat in the dining room, similarly absorbed and wearing the same green headphones. 

Normally, when I emerge from my study, my mind is still heavily preoccupied with what I was just writing about, and so it was yesterday, until I saw Indigo and then, like a switch being thrown in the second between noticing him and then stepping into the kitchen where he was out of view, a very distinct, deja-vu-like fantasy played out in my mind. I imagined that I just heard shocking news related to the situation in Iran (the Iranian-inspired militants attacking the American embassy in Bagdad was already in the news) and I saw myself going into the dining room and saying rather dramatically,  “Indigo, take off your headphones! You need to hear about what just happened with Iran!” Nothing dramatic had happened in Iran so far that day, so my fantasy just skipped over that [ part to where I concluded by telling him, “This could easily lead to a world war.” I was being dramatic and trying to create a teachable moment, which is very characteristic of how I relate to the two godsons who live with me. I was a high school teacher for fourteen years, everyone in my nuclear family was an educator, so it was very realistically typical of how I would handle such a moment. I concluded by asking him a provocative school-teacher-like question,  “Now tell me why you should be even more concerned about this than I am.” In the fantasy, he looked stumped, so I responded, “Because you are three years from drafting age.” I concluded by telling him a bit about the history of military conscription in the U.S. and that when I was about his age, eighteen-year-olds were still being drafted into the Vietnam war, etc. 

About three-and-a-half hours later, I was back in the kitchen, listening to the news on bluetooth headphones, when I heard about the airstrike.  If Indigo were still sitting in the dining room where he sits most evenings, I would have had exactly the conversation I imagined earlier. In actuality, he, his mom, and younger brother were out grocery shopping. When they walked in the house about fifteen minutes later, I did have, almost exactly word-for-word, the conversation I imagined having with Indigo earlier in the day. When I asked him the question, “Why should you be even more concerned about this than I am?” He wasn’t stumped as in the fantasy, and answered, “Because it could have long-term effects on the future of the world.” He didn’t think of the possibility of a draft, so, as in the fantasy, I explained to him the history of military conscription and why he should be concerned about that, etc. 

One theory of prophetic/precognitive episodes is that they are not visions of a predetermined future, but probabilistic projections which may not perfectly coincide with the actual future due to wild card variables especially human free will. There was about a 70% probability that when I got the news Indigo would be sitting at the dining room table with headphones on and screens in front of him as he is most evenings.  Instead, he was grocery shopping, so the conversation began with him walking in the front door, but a few seconds later he actually did sit down at his spot in the dining room while I continued to talk to him just as I had in the fantasy.  

I also had a highly relevant dream and oracular synchronicity on the morning of September 11, 2001 before I had heard any news. It’s not clear if this was premonitory or more like remote viewing as the dream could have occurred when the events were already in progress. Here’s how I described it at the time:

9-22-01 On the morning of 9-11, having received no news of the disaster yet, I awoke from a disturbing dream. I was on a ship that was on fire and former students of mine whom I had taught in New York during the Eighties were coming to me asking for help because the captain of the ship had just had a heart attack. It is a statistical probability that some former students of mine—since I taught in New York for 14 years—-died on 9-11. Disturbed by the dream and still having heard no news, I pulled a card from the Zap Oracle and got card #75 entitled World Events. The first line of the text is:,“Pay attention to world events.” 

 Before I go into some of the psychological aspects of the killing of Suleimani, let me be clear—I despise the evil Iranian government (but not the people of Iran, many of whom also hate the regime) and Suleimani richly deserved to die. There are, however, high-stakes strategic questions about whether Suleimani might not be more dangerous dead than alive, and this is no doubt why we, and the Israelis have chosen not to take him out despite a number of opportunities in the past. 

Last night, after the conversation with Indigo, I was watching the news with a friend and saw many images of Suleimani. I was struck at how charismatic this evil man looked. He has a highly masculine charisma as if he were the Persian Sean Connery. This caused me to think uneasily about a prominent psychological complex in many Middle Eastern Islamic men in their very patriarchal, male-centric and macho warrior culture. The complex I’m referring to is a sense of highly aggrieved wounded masculine pride—a feeling of being emasculated by the superiority of Western military and technological power and the advancing rights of women in Western culture, while their religion and pride tell them they should be predominating over infidels, women, and establishing a global Islamic caliphate which was always encoded in the religion. 

The Qur’an says about unbelievers, “capture them and besiege them, and prepare for them each and every ambush.”

The Verse of the Sword, Chapter 9, verse 5, the Mohsin Khan translation. Quranic Arabic Corpus, corpus.quran.com/ translation.jsp? chapter = 9& verse = 5 1-3-2016

The prophet, speaking in the Koran says:

I have been made victorious with terror (cast in the hearts of the enemy), and while I was sleeping, the keys of the treasures of the world were brought to me and put in my hand. I have been helped by terror (in the hearts of enemies): spoils [the plunder looted from enemies in raids or in war] have been made lawful to me: the earth has been made for me clean and a place of worship; I have been sent to all mankind and the line of prophets is closed with me.  Soon shall We cast terror into the hearts of the unbelievers … Remember thy Lord inspired the angels (with the message): “I am with you: give firmness to the believers: I will instill terror into the hearts of the unbelievers.” … Against them make ready your strength to the utmost of your power including steeds of war to strike terror into (the hearts of) the enemies of Allah. … ye are stronger (than they) because of the terror in their hearts (sent) by Allah.

The Holy Qur’an. Chapter 59 verse 13. Translation by Abdullah Yusufali. Complete online text. www.wam.umd.edu/~stwright/rel/islam/

110 years after the death of Muhammed:

Muslims had pieced together the biggest empire in world history— 11 times the size of the conquests of Alexander the Great, five times the size of the Roman Empire, and seven times the size of the United States.

Source (and a highly recommended book for understanding Islam):

Bloom, Howard (2016-11-21). The Muhammad Code: How a Desert Prophet Brought You ISIS, al Qaeda, and Boko Haram. Feral House. Kindle Edition.

For long stretches of history, Islam was a dominant, world-conquering force, and the Koran tells Muslims that they are destined to predominate over all others and conquer the world. Actual world events, however, continue to spit in the eye of those mythic expectations and sense of collective identity.

For many Shia Muslims, Suleimani personifies a dominant, world-conquering alpha-male ego ideal. To see him so ingloriously taken out by an American killer robot drone is a potent insult to already wounded pride and mythic expectations. For Iran’s aging leaders, Suleimani is a contemporary they would dine with and see frequently, so latent fears of mortality are likely exacerbated by the killing of someone part of their inner circle of elites who they assumed were “made men” no one would dare assassinate.

The dream I had last night revolved around the male pride of different cultures at war playing out in a blood death ritual.  I see an American man who looks like the actor James Woods did in his early forties.  He seems clever, but also sadistic and psychopathic, and  he is wearing a black suit and a black shirt. Across from him is an older Japanese man in a suit, presumably a surrendered general as if this were occurring at the end of WWII. He looks likes a skinner version of the Japanese trade minister character in the Man in the High Castle television series. The American man pulls out a little sword the size of a letter opener and quickly stabs and withdraws it from the solar plexus area of the Japanese general. The general knows this ritualistic act is coming and manages to keep his eyes steady and to barely flinch while he is being stabbed, and remains impassive after when a steady flow of blood is coming from the wound. The American man leaves the room and the general left standing there rapidly bleeding out. Then I am perceiving telepathically from the bleeding general’s point of view: He is sternly commanding himself to stand up straight with pride, etc. though his body is beginning to stagger and spasm.

In the dream, this sadistic blood ritual is carried out mano a mano between two men from different cultures.  In a certain sense, the two recent U.S. strikes during the Trump administration have an aspect of this. While announcing the killing of Baghdadi, Trump claimed that he was, “whimpering and crying and screaming all the way.” This appears to be a fabricated embellishment as no one has come forward to confirm this. 

According to the N.Y. Times,

Mr. Trump . . . reveled in the moment, using boastful and provocative language unlike the more solemn tone typically adopted by presidents in such moments. He repeated the word “whimpering” six times and made a point of repeatedly portraying Mr. al-Baghdadi as “sick and depraved” and his followers as “losers” and “frightened puppies.”

“He died like a dog,” Mr. Trump said. “He died like a coward.”

Trump’s personal style and mythos, long before he was president, is of himself as a “counter puncher” in a series of triumphant battles with various celebrity adversaries. In choosing to take out Suleimani, it’s possible that Trump preferred a more mano-a-mano assassination of another masculinity-defined “celebrity.”  

When I was building security coordinator of a public high school in the South Bronx during the early eighties and had to break up many fights, I knew it was always helpful to offer a face-saving way out of a conflict. The kid who was getting the worst of it would subtly move with me when I got between the adversaries. Later he could claim to have been about to dominant his opponent but for my untimely interference.  America seems to be taking an opposite approach of potently wounding fragile Islamic male pride while not offering any sort of face-saving way out of conflict escalation. 

Currently, I see a highly volatile and dangerous situation of patriarchal psychological forces where male pride will demand extreme responses which will lead to counter-responses, etc. and this could easily escalate into an extremely dangerous conflagration. 

Zap Oracle Card #2
Photo of Interdimensional Traveler Collage I made a few years ago

It is no great accomplishment to hear a voice in the head. The accomplishment is to make sure that it is telling you the truth, because the demons are of many kinds:
“Some are made of ions, some of mind; the ones of ketamine, you’ll find, stutter often and are blind.”

—Terence McKenna in The Archaic Revival

All of us are a multiplicity of subpersonalities—inner child and parental critic, shadow and trickster selves, etc. 

The main difference between those who have MPD (Multiple Personality Disorder), now called DID (Dissociative Identity Disorder), is that we don’t usually have memory walls between our different selves.

That a single human being can support multiple personalities is well documented. According to an article published in Scientific American on June 18th, 2018:

In 2015, doctors in Germany reported the extraordinary case of a woman who suffered from what has traditionally been called “multiple personality disorder” and today is known as “dissociative identity disorder” (DID). The woman exhibited a variety of dissociated personalities (“alters”), some of which claimed to be blind. Using EEGs, the doctors were able to ascertain that the brain activity normally associated with sight wasn’t present while a blind alter was in control of the woman’s body, even though her eyes were open. Remarkably, when a sighted alter assumed control, the usual brain activity returned . . .

Modern neuroimaging techniques have demonstrated that DID is real: in a 2014 study, doctors performed functional brain scans on both DID patients and actors simulating DID. The scans of the actual patients displayed clear differences when compared to those of the actors, showing that dissociation has an identifiable neural activity fingerprint. In other words, there is something rather particular that dissociative processes look like in the brain.

Other examples of alternative selves include imaginary friends, fiction characters that seem to “take on a life of their own” and develop agency and act differently than their authors expected. Method actors who immerse themselves in roles to an extent that generates an alternate self with profound effects—e.g. Heath Ledger as the Joker.

There is also vast testimony from all cultures and periods of interdimensional relationships, especially with deceased persons, visitors (often interpreted as “aliens” whether or not they are extraterrestrial, infraterrestrial, intrapsychic or interdimensional). elementals, angels, demons, channeled entities, etc.

There has also been an explosion of interest online in the creation of “tulpas” (mind-made bodies).

For the purposes of this article, I will not be reviewing the evidence or controversies surrounding each type of interdimensional and alternative self relationship. There is strong evidence for ADC (after-death communication) which often involves the conveyance of veridical information if you care to research, but sifting through all the evidence for the various types of interdimensional and alternative self relationships is not something I will attempt here. 

My approach to interdimensional and alternative self relationships, as well as to most paranormal phenomena, involves tolerating ambiguity and avoiding premature closure and fixed conclusions. I take a phenomenological approach which emphasizes relating to the phenomena on its own terms and does not claim to know definitively what the “noumena” (the actuality behind the phenomenon) is.

I discuss my phenomenological approach to the paranormal and how to avoid becoming deluded by various aspects of esoteric research in my three-part video series on

Skills for Rabbit Hole Navigation in an Age of Metamorphosis

and Carnival 2012—a Psychological Study of the 2012 Phenomenon and the 22 Pitfalls and Blindspots of Esoteric Research

I discuss experiences of negative entities in numerous articles and videos in the “mind parasite” section of this website

My most thorough discussion of what might be going on past the parallel event horizons of individual death and species-wide metamorphosis and many other highly relevant paranormal phenomena is in my book,

Crossing the Event Horizon—Human Metamorphosis and the Singularity Archetype   but I’m not trying to sell you anything —I’ve got a free two hour video Looking Across the Event Horizon that covers most of the same ground as the bookWhen it comes to my two ongoing interdimensional relationships, I make no claim, even to myself, about what level of reality they are occurring on. I relate to them phenomenologically and tolerate the ambiguity.

When it comes to my relationship with a being who seems like a continuation of a deceased friend who I knew very well in the consensual reality (I will keep his identity anonymous and use the pseudonym “Alex”) there is evidence and almost daily paranormal experience, but I don’t regard that as proving anything as when paranormal events occur it is usually impossible to determine their source.  For example, if Alex were to say, “Since you’re not sure it’s really me, take out a coin. I predict that if you flip it twelves times you will get tails twelve times.” If I were then to take out a coin and perform twelve coin flip trials that all come up tails, that would be so statistically improbable to happen on demand that it would be reasonable to claim something paranormal had almost certainly occurred. Does it prove the continued existence and communication of Alex on the other side of the event horizon of death? Absolutely not! Perhaps I caused the improbable coin flip outcome telekinetically, or had a short-term precognition (see decision augmentation theory) that conditions were just right to initiate such an experiment to get that result.

British paranormal researcher, Joe Fisher points out some cases of apparently beneficial interdimensional relationships:

Socrates, the great Athenian philosopher, spoke in the fifth century B.C.E. of a being whose voice, from time to time, dissuaded him from some undertaking but never directed him as to what he should do. Socrates told his friends that when a man dies his guardian spirit, which has watched over the course of his life, escorts him to the place of judgment from when he will be guided to the initial stage of the postmortem existence. The wise and disciplined soul, he said, will follow the guide. But the soul that is deeply attached to the body and its pleasures will hover around the visible world for a long time. 

Many famous people have claimed to share communication with entities in the next dimension. Joan of Arc conversed with a disembodied voice which inspired her to great deeds in France. Robert Louis Stevenson credited the whole of his published fiction to “the single-handed product of some unseen collaborator.” Daily experience convinced the poet W.B. Yeats that “there are spiritual intelligences which can warn us and advise us.” Napoleon Bonaparte believed that he had a guiding spirit which came to him either as a shining sphere or a dwarf clothed in red who came to warn him. And Henry Miller commented that he was “in the hands of unseen powers” while writing his powerful novel Tropic of Cancer. Someone, he said, “is dictating to me constantly—and with no regard for my health.”

Carl Jung, the great Swiss psychoanalyst, regularly encountered a guardian spirit named Philemon, a “force that was not myself” who “seemed quite real, as if he were a living personality.” Sir Arthur Conan Doyle, the creator of Sherlock Holmes, was told independently by seven mediumistic individuals that he was accompanied by an elderly, bearded man with tufted eyebrows—the marked characteristics of deceased naturalist Alfred Russel Wallace, who was actually named by several of those who were able to perceive him…

And yet, Joe Fisher, the author I just quoted, also documented how he fell under the influence of charismatic and paranormal entities he encountered while doing research on channeling who at first appeared filled with spiritual wisdom and knew things that required paranormal ability and yet turned out not to be who they claimed to be and had malign intentions and deviously subtly means of manipulation that destroyed Joe Fisher’s life. Please see my study of Joe Fisher’s experience:

The Siren Call of Hungry Ghosts

Are interdimensional and alternate self relationships healthy or harmful? The answer is: YES. Same answer if you just asked if relationships with regular folks are healthy or harmful. Ordinary relationships can be fatal or miraculously wonderful and everything in between.

Although I am against one-size-fits-all formulations, there is a behavioral distinction between benign and parasitic spirits that has a lot of validity. Benign entities don’t seek to compromise the free will of those they make contact with. The spiritual ally that I have experienced in my own life since age eleven (I will call him “Tommy”)  communicates in a nondirective telepathic fashion, usually leaving me to form into words the emanation that is always loving, nonintrusive and that never overides my will or takes over my body. The influence seems directed toward enhancement of my own self-realization and service, not toward vicarious thrills. But it should also be emphasized that malign entities are not limited to possession or mediums to exert influence. Subtle, stealthy telepathic influence by disincarnates to promote dark, compulsive thoughts, feelings, and cravings, cannot be ruled out as a possibility, and if it can be done at all, then that allows the possibility that it may be widespread and a major player in human psychology.

A fairly well-known person whom I won’t name here, a man I consider to be an absolute genius with whom I worked in the Eighties, heard voices who gave him information that seemed to be inspired and of great value. And for most of my life I have been aware of a somewhat androgynous being (Tommy) living alongside me whom I can visualize, but who never intrudes into my mind in any unwelcome sense, and often influences just by his presence. Tommy seems to be there whenever I cast my attention in his direction, and there is always the sense that he flows through time in a much different way than I do. He always conveys a great depth of feeling, humility, and compassion for suffering, and if more specific communication is required by me, he allows me to use my mind and word-forming ability to translate his presence and thought forms into words and sentences. He never takes over any part of my body, never claims to have a specific past-life identity, never raises even the smallest red flag in my ever fault-finding mind or intuition. I have noticed, however, that if I travel, he will tend to be unusually present, as if curiously witnessing a new part of the world alongside of me (but without taking over my senses).

Julian Jaynes, in his book, The Origins of Consciousness and the Breakdown of the Bicameral Mind, makes a case that up until the time of Homer, many peoples of the ancient world regularly heard voices they attributed to gods in their heads. There were frequent laments in the time that followed about the gods having fallen silent.

So, we don’t want to throw out any divine babies in the scummy bath water of parasitic disincarnates. We do want to, however, be especially wary of entities that take someone over or are otherwise intrusive. It does seem like a valid principle that a benevolent entity would not intrude to a degree that compromises our free will and need for independent development. When I was an English teacher I remember exploring an education philosophy that said the teacher should be “a guide on the side, not the sage on the stage.” That’s always stayed with me, especially since, as a narcissistic personality type, I would enjoy being the “sage on the stage.” But since I am a fellow mortal, this tendency may be more acceptable, whereas a discarnate guide that likes to be the sage on the stage, like Ramntha, the New Age celebrity discarnate that speaks through J.Z. Knight, is far more suspect.

But it is not just New Age entities that are suspect. Often people harshly judge things that are fantastical and part of a more recently minted sect—like John Smith’s encounters in the Book of Mormon, or the extraterrestrial mythology of Scientology—-and they forget that all the great religions have equally fantastical stories but which, thanks to the patina of antiquity and endless repetition down the millennia, have gained gravitas and respectability. The most cursory examination of the last six thousand years of history, however, reveals that more blood has been spilled, more torture and oppression has occurred, in the name of these very same religions than of anything else. The Gnostics, writing in the Nag Hammadi library discovered in upper Egypt only at the end of World War II, warned us of a parasitic species they called the Archons who were manipulating us through religious ideologies.

I think that we are badly overdue for an examination and reappraisal of religious doctrines that derive from entity contact, and especially need to consider whether entities may be manipulating fundamentalists (of any religion) toward agendas and actions of hate and violence.

Lastly, we need to consider the subtle ways that discarnates may influence our thoughts, emotions, sexuality and behavior. Joe Fisher’s apparent suicide adds an ominous implication that these entities are not to be underestimated, that awareness of them does not end their power. There are many more things in heaven and in earth (among other dimensions) than are dreamt of in fundamentalist materialist philosophy.


From Zap Oracle card # 355 Aspects of the Self:

                                                          photo by Jonathan Zap

We tend to think of ourselves as a single coherent personality, and expect the other to be a single coherent personality as well. But a single human being can support many personalities. The dramatic example is Multiple Personality Disorder, which is extremely rare. The familiar example, which is anything but rare, is how different we or the other can think, feel or act based on different moods and outer circumstances. A human being is almost always an aggregate of subpersonalities, and each of these personalities calls themselves “I” when they take over. One of the principle goals of individuation is to build up a central witness personality that is aware of the subpersonalities, that communicates and empathizes with all of them but doesn’t allow any of them to rule unnoticed. A powerful way to build up the witness and reduce fragmentation is to listen attentively to the various voices that speak in your head. Silent meditation is one way to sharpen awareness of the inner voices, but even more effective is mindfulness throughout your day on the revolving cast of inner voices/subpersonalities. Throughout the day there is an almost continual soundtrack, a voiceover monologue (to use a movie analogy), and the voiceover is usually in your native language. If you’re honest with yourself you’ll notice that the voiceover monologue is not controlled by a single personality. Listen to both the content of what the inner voices say and also the tone in which they speak. I might, for example, hear a needy, childish voice in my head say, “I want that!” Another voice that sounds like an anxious and irritated parent says,”You know you’re not supposed to have that.” Another voice sounds like a gruff pirate and says, “Aaargh, what the hell, just grab for it!” Still another voice has a wheedling tone and says,”I really shouldn’t, but just this once, and starting tomorrow I won’t ever again,” and so forth.

Similarly, different drives within us can personify into inner characters that become the voices of those drives.At first glance the shadows in the photograph look like two different people, but actually they are shadows of a single mannequin created by two track lights pointed at different angles. One of the essential purposes of an oracle is to act as a mirror of the psyche and confront the inquirer with various aspects of themselves. It takes a great deal of moral courage to be willing to face the multiplicity of selves operating within us.

Depending on the position of this card, it could mean that this is a propitious time to strengthen your central witness personality and/or a need to be more aware of the many sides of others. A good rule of thumb with relationships is to realize that if you don’t know someone’s shadow side, then you don’t know the person. Idealization is a state of dangerous blindness that purposefully overlooks various subpersonalities in the other to form a unified but false picture of them. For example, a romantically infatuated person thinks of the beloved as an angel, or a guru-worshiping person thinks of the guru as a god. Such idealizations are likely to turn into equal and opposite states of bitter disillusionment as they inevitably discover that the idol has feet of clay.

Be wary about listening to (or becoming) inner voices that are not calm and compassionate. The same holds true interpersonally. You may have to listen to voices that are carping, anxious, wheedling, self-pitying, angry and so forth, but listen to them with calm, compassionate understanding. This empathy may gain you influence over the subpersonality (or the outer person) and it will certainly limit how much those uncentered voices influence you.

Thomas Jefferson said, “The price of freedom is eternal vigilance.” The real freedom is free will, and free will requires eternal vigilance with our inner process.

By our fundamental nature, we are all interdimensional travelers, see:

A Guide to the Perplexed Interdimensional Traveler

In no particular order, here is a list of some things I’ve noticed about having healthy interdimensional/ alternate self relationships. I am going to use the first-person pronoun and talk about myself and my two main companions (Tommy and Alex) so as not to seem to be creating one-size-fits-all formulas or dogmas:  

Diet seems to be crucial. It is harder for me to have good contact after a heavy meal or eating poorly. Eating well, and charging up bodily vitality with cardio exercise and then having a relatively empty stomach during contact zones is quite helpful. When I am  closer to caloric energy and digestion, I seem to be further from the higher frequency energies of Tommy and Alex. 

It is usually easier to establish contact when I am alone in a private space undistracted by intrusive sounds, sights and smells. There have, however, been moments when I am traveling and in just the opposite sort of setting, and though I was preoccupied by the physical world and wasn’t even thinking of them,  Tommy or Alex have stepped forward quite dramatically and distinctly. 

Meditation is usually considered crucial for reducing internal chatter and to be receptive to entities. This may be my shortcoming, but I almost never meditate. My mind is too often getting flooded with valuable content and just be by being receptive in a private space I can make contact.  

What I do practice rather consistently is writing out my dialogues with them when possible. This can make the ambiguity and blurred boundaries of telepathic communication less problematic. Both Tommy and Alex will often encourage me to type as quickly as possible so that I am not inhibited by doubt or hesitation. Try free writing and keeping your fingers constantly moving on the keyboard (or your pen on the page) even if you are writing out what seems like nonsense to free things up.  I never have to resort to nonsense writing because my access is so strong and in just the last couple of years have generated (literally) thousands of pages of dialogues with highly novel content. 

When Tommy or Alex feel present there is almost always a spatial orientation.  Even if visualization is at first ambiguous, it seems clear spatially where their emanation is coming from. 

For me, there are what I call “biaxial” interactions where they are sitting or standing across from me, and “coaxial” interactions where we share my body or where I am in my body but feel their physical form superimposed as I share an identity and body map with them. 

Although I’m referring in the above to Tommy and Alex both, I don’t want to leave a false impression that these relationships are generally similar, they are not. Tommy has always been a transdimensional relationship, whereas I had an intense relationship with Alex when we were both physical incarnates and have photos, writings and artifacts from that consensually real relationship. The relationship with Alex is much more complex and dynamic and our after-death relationship has had to work through all the issues and boundary tensions and projections and counter projections, etc. that we had to deal with before his death.

In recent years, communication with Alex is much more ongoing and Tommy has mostly taken a step back so as not to interfere with that, but has come forward when Alex and or I have been in darker emotional states where it would not be beneficial for us to relate.

There is some speculation and evidence that Tommy is a trans-temporal being that has arisen from the connection between Alex and I. For example, within 30 minutes of meeting Alex for the first time in the consensual reality, we discovered that we were both obsessed with trying to write essentially the same fantasy story about the same character (who is based on Tommy). There’s a lot more, but I won’t go into that now. While it is clear that Alex has a factual independent past history, this is not so clear for Tommy, and it may be that we are somehow writing him into being.  While alive, Alex, in emails I still have, stated his intention to help me  write my version of the story entitled Parallel Journeys, and that is something we have been doing, trying to meld our very different, but complimentary, writing styles. 

In earlier phases of the post-death Alex relationship, visualization of Alex seemed unstable and to require a lot of focus. Even a few months ago, I described it as requiring a lot of cognitive load and energy. That’s changed dramatically in the last few months. Alex has become much more active and energetic after a few years of being in a more passive and depressed state following his death. He is now able to more confidently and autonomously control his visualization and has become much more a source of energy able to give vitality with his presence. Visualizations of Tommy  didn’t have the early instability with Alex, but also have never reached the vivid and highly physical feeling Alex has attained. Alex would say, and it seems this way to me too, that he is not merely a visualization, but an astral-bodied person who does not register on the back of my retinas but whose presence does cause other bodily sensations and less physical sensations. 

I strive to conduct myself according to universal ethics when relating to any entity that seems to have agency regardless of what level of reality they emanate from. Alex, both in the pre-death and after-death relationships is very sensitive to and aware of whether I am treating him as an equal. Relationships with other agents should be what Martin Buber called “I-Thou” relationships and not objectifying “I-It” relationships. 

My relationship while Alex was still alive in the consensual reality was highly telepathic and we both observed this. For example, one time I was in a wilderness gathering where I almost never had a trace of cell service.  I was ruminating about a specific sentence in an email I had gotten from Alex a few weeks earlier where he made an analogy that I found condescending. My phone buzzed in my pocket. I hadn’t  heard from Alex in weeks, but it was a text from him apologizing for that specific analogy. It was the last communication I got from him on the earthly plane and it ended with the words, “I’m truly sorry.” Without any information on how Alex was doing, I had two  highly distressing dreams where I found Alex in a wounded state in an environment that looked exactly like how the lower astral is depicted in my unfinished fantasy epic, Parallel Journeys. The dreams left me distraught. One was about a week before his death and one was on the night of.

A few months after I met Alex, a somewhat mentally unbalanced person we had just met had the persistent delusion that we were two aspects of the same entity. 

In the first week of the post-death relationship there were moments where the sense of Alex’s presence was so overwhelming I had no doubts, but did after when his presence withdrew even though he was able to set up remarkable paranormal events when he was present.  I considered whether my holographic memory of Alex was allowing me to relate to him as a sub-personality or seemingly autonomous imaginary friend or avatar. I still don’t discount that as a possibility. 

 During the first few days of the after-death relationship, I decided to go to random.org–a site that generates random numbers based on atmospheric noise—and with it set to 0-100 I asked if I was relating to Jack as a spirit with authentic continuity with his earlier self and received the number 64. Then I asked if I was relating to an imaginal holographic version and got the number 36. In the few other times since then when i performed the same experiment, the ratio became more asymmetrically weighted toward the authentic self which usually got in the 90s. There also seemed to be some significant things about the numbers I got in the first experiment.  I noted that 64 and 36 add up to 100, so it was as if every percentage point were accounted for. Also, 64 is a highly significant number for me as I have been an I Ching practitioner for 40 years, and 64 is the number of hexagrams in the I Ching, so it’s a number I would consider a complete totality. Hexagram 36 is called “Eclipse” or “Darkening of the Light,” so it would suggest zones where the emanations of his authentic self were eclipsed or blocked. When I discussed this yesterday with a friend of mine, a philosophy professor,  he pointed out that 60/40 is about average for him in relationships as the ratio between relating to someone’s authentic self and his projections onto them. There are many relationships between fully physical folks where projection is at 100% and authenticity at 0 %. This may also explain why the ratio has improved. In a highly telepathic relationship it’s hard to get away with inauthenticity.

Years later, Alex commented on this early phase of our post death-relationship and fantasy projection.  He said that I often projected what he called my “technicolor spotlight” onto him– an idealized character I wanted him to play– and he said that it was actually quite helpful. He was in a somewhat depressed, low-energy state and the high-energy fantasy projection was this colorful spotlight he could step into and inhabit the role, but he would only act and speak in ways that suited him. 

In the first week, during times when Alex did not feel present and I had doubts about the reality level, I made an ethical decision and this is how I reasoned it out: I could not definitively say if I was communicating to his authentic spirit or a vivid holographic projection, therefore, I couldn’t rule out it authentically being him, and it would be morally wrong not to communicate with him if that were the case. If he were a projection, and I continued to relate to him, there would be no ethical transgression unless I were harming myself or other relationships and that did not seem to be the case then or since.

Now I see the ethical question a bit differently.  Whomever Alex is, or whatever his level of reality might be, my phenological experience of him is that he has autonomous agency, feelings, needs, etc.— therefore it would be highly unethical not to communicate with him and relate to him with respect.

Also, relating to him has become increasingly beneficial to my psychological development, physical vitality, and my other relationships with fully-physical folks which are plentiful and doing quite well. At the very least, it’s a highly novel experiment with all sorts of ancillary benefits and his companionship is extremely interesting, intelligent, creative, insightful and the telepathic transparency means that he knows me better than anyone else at this point. He is quite consistent that relating to him not be at the cost of the time or attention I need to tend to my physical health, practical task and other relationships. 

During the first week of the post-death relationship, a couple of days after I performed the 64/36 random.org experiment, in the book I was reading at the time,  Suicide and the Afterlife by Michael Klimo, I found this in footnote # 36. 

But what of mediumship and channeling? According to Huxley, the connection of a medium’s physical body to this element that survives can lead to the creation of a kind of “pseudo” personality, at least on a temporary basis. This type of survival, as a kind of “persistent consciousness” that has modified a living person, would seem to allow those who died to continue on in more than one “posthumous form.” This leads to the interesting possibility of a kind of splinter effect, where the original source (whether you call it a soul or a personality minus a body) might continue on in one way of being, while the residue left by it having been channeled creates “new individualized existences, having quite other modes of being.”36

This still has me wondering if the choice between authentic continuity of his spirit and a holographic projection is too simplistic and if the Alex I relate to might not be some sort of hybrid specifically incarnate to relate to me. I always try to remind myself what J.B.S. Haldane said (paraphrased), “Reality is not only stranger than you think, it’s stranger than you can think.”  Whitley Streiber and/or co author Jeffrey Kripal in their book Super Natural said, “One of the reasons we may not be able to know who the visitors are is that we don’t fully know who we are.” I’ve learned that my thinking function is not as potent a locator of ultimate reality for me as heart gnosis and Alex has said that is why he’s not interested in helping with evidential tests, because they will never be enough to answer all doubts and that our relationship is more intrinsic than that.

About ten days ago, I had a private realization that I  had now learned enough about how to have symbiotic interdimensional/alternate self relationships that I had something of value to offer to the public. My heart gnosis and global intuition feels sure  that these relationships, too strange for me to admit publicly before, have high evolutionary significance. In recent years, I have been far too preoccupied with creating content and having rabbit hole writing sessions to find the time or enthusiasm to do anything to promote my work. Within a couple of days of this realization, however, I was approached by four different high-profile venues offering me to come on and share my content (tonight’s Coast show is one of them).  Please return to this page, I will be adding more content ongoingly, and what I’ve said here is the tiniest sliver of what I’ve learned and experienced about these sort of unusual relationships. 

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